LAST WEEK.

Well some of you know that last week will go down in history as one of the worst weeks of our lives. We spent Sunday-Tuesday filling out paper work for JR and the kids for court which really upset me. It is just hard to bring out all of the emotions. The only way that I have been able to deal with loosing Sam as a friend is to look at it like she died. So when I have to go to court or do things for court all of this comes back up and it is difficult. So then on Wednesday we decided to put our house on the market for finacnial reasons. It is just to hard to pay our mortgage and all of our bills. Then Thursday night my dad (Dave) called to tell us that his prostate cancer is back. The Doctors have caught it very early but it is still not great news. I am just devestated I thought that this was all over. I truely never thought that we would be dealing with this all over again. I am terrified. My dad getting sick last time contributed to my down ward spiral. I know that it is wrong to question God, but hasn't my family been through enough. Brian lost his mom, my uncle died, dad has been sick before, we are loosing our house, we can't have babies.......I just sometimes wonder when this is all going to stop. The last two years of our lives have been insane. Getting married, moving way far away from our families, miscarriage, infertility, debt, me not graduating school, my medical problems, 2 surgeries, and now this. I just.....this is nuts.